My brain hates me...

Oh yeah my brain and mainly my subconscious truly hate me at the moment...

It's not good enough for it that I'm suffering these godawful dreams that are driving me nuts as it is, it wanted to kick the paranoia into full swing today too.

I went shopping at my local Sainsbury's and all was kinda going well, chest was a bit tight, but that was understandable as I'd walked uphill from Yam Towers to the store.

As I was walking around the store with Haunted Rock Cake, the old lady started staring at me, really staring at me...it was like a switch had been flipped in my mind...

EVERYONE WAS STARING AT ME

I have to state now, I know that everyone was not staring at me. They have things going on their little Worlds that make an invisible dot on an invisible dot in comparison, but despite me knowing this my mind kept telling me everyone is staring at me and judging me.

It was like it all the walk home too, felt everyone in the cars and buses were staring at me, every window had someone staring at me...if I was able to run I would have.

I'm at home now, I feel less panicky, and I'm in my room, I'm safe nobody can see me...damn my brain.