It's odd, I was speaking to someone today, and a whole shedload of memories came back...my fondness for them, how close we were at one stage and so on. It was great chatting (although it was very brief and we didn't really say too much if I was honest)....and it was always nice to know she was ok.
But it struck me...and hard...I miss her in my life.
It's mad, even after all these years I really miss her so much, even though she doesn't work or live too far away (just a bus journey)...thing is I know that even if we were to get together (which to be honest is highly unlikely) it would not be a good idea as I don't honestly think I would be good for her, or her good for me.
Why does life do this to me?
Hi mate!
ReplyDeleteIt is excellent news that you Mum is home and on the road to recovery and things are calming down!
On the note of missing people you were involved with? Well, for me there was just one but it would never have wortked out even though we were engaged for over 5 years. The issue was with her damn family, they all hated me becasue I worked as a forecourt attendant! When I changed my job becvasue the forecourt was about to close there was one huge complication that really led to me being ostracised (bloody hell, that was a biggun') just becasue I said no to going on holiday abroad with the family because I had just started a new job. What was more important a dumb holiday or a full time job? Since then it all went very wrong.
Since then she has met someone else and had a kid. The twist is, is that the kid is not hers! She is gay and her partner had the child, artificial insemination by a gay male friend! She had the nerve to suggest to me that I meet this bloke! I quickly changed the conversation. As far as do I miss her, no. Were we good for each other, no.
As far as the rest, well they were never long enough to really get involved and besides what girl would go for a boring git like me who spends every second of every day chained to the computer?!